Cool, but I still don’t really like meditation (part 3 of 3)

Jul 27, 2015

This is post 3 in a series of posts on meditation. In part 1, I described my stubborn refusal to accept that the state of my mind could have any affect on my physical health, until I was forced to accept it when I experienced it in action. In part 2, I described some of the science I researched to help me understand why our minds can affect our bodies.

It wasn’t enough for me to read articles from studies proving meditation has health benefits, I needed to experience it firsthand

I was participating in a Facebook group for chronic fatigue and chronic pain sufferers. Someone posted a link to a video, a guided meditation for chronic pain.

In the past I would have ignored this post, but given my recent research, my skepticism gave way to curiosity. Continue Reading

Overthinking the need to stop thinking (part 2 of 3)

Jul 26, 2015

In part 1, I described the circumstances that led to my turning point, when I finally realized the stressed, anxious state of my mind was directly responsible for the physical symptoms of debilitating pain and fatigue I was experiencing.

I had finally accepted the evidence, as there was no other explanation, that my mind affected my physical health.

Is this when I gave in and surrendered to my spirit guide? No, not really.

I’m entirely too pragmatic for my own good, probably. What I did next was research. I bought a notebook and I read everything I could get my hands on about how the brain processes pain, stress, and fear. I took notes and drew diagrams. Continue Reading

A skeptic’s guide to all this meditation stuff (part 1)

Jul 26, 2015

Sometimes people won’t hear what you tell them, no matter how you say it. They have to experience it for themselves.

Have you ever had an argument, at work or in a relationship, where the other person finally came around to your point of view, in a completely frustrating roundabout way, instead of just listening to what you were trying to tell them in the first place?

This happens all the time, and I used to get so frustrated — why can’t they just listen to me, I’m spelling it out so clearly, it’s so obvious (to me)! One day I realized it wasn’t the words I used or the clarity of my argument or the passion of my conviction. Sometimes people just need to realize things in their own way, on their own time. They can’t be told, they need to be shown. They need to discover the evidence their mind needs, which is often not the same as what worked for yours.

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Experiment: Light Therapy for Circadian Rhythm

Mar 10, 2015

An update on my ongoing quest to conquer chronic fatigue:

In my last post I mentioned that I still struggled to get out of bed by 8am but I felt like I was getting better. My most successful strategies up to that point had been:

  1. Cortisol manager in the evenings
  2. Meditation (might I recommend Headspace to help?) and Yoga
  3. Doctor-recommended supplements for my low-iron anemia, vitamin D, thyroid, etc.
  4. Scaling back on stressful activities at work
  5. Adjusting my schedule and prioritizing sleep and time to relax
  6. Spending more time on things that make me happy, like volunteering, music, and creating art

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In which I learn about Cortisol and circadian rhythms

Feb 28, 2015

If you read my Fabulously Lazy post you know I’ve been struggling with chronic fatigue for a long time.

Also in that post I described my irregular circadian rhythm — despite setting my alarm for 7:30am to get up and go to work, my inner Night Owl always wins. I drag myself out of bed, feeling like I had to move heaven and earth to do it. I get a burst of energy around 10pm after being sluggish all day. This makes it hard to fall asleep, and the cycle continues. Continue Reading

Conversation with my naturopath friend

Sep 13, 2014

After writing my last post about my chronic fatigue and adrenal fatigue theories, a friend of mine messaged me on Facebook. I hadn’t talked to her much since moving from Seattle, when she was setting up her practice as a naturopath, and was bewildered with myself why I hadn’t asked her for advice sooner.

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She’s fabulously lazy

Sep 10, 2014

I heard the term Fabulously Lazy in a Franz Ferdinand song. (I base a lot of my life on song lyrics. I first heard the phrase “Sour Jane” in a song lyric as well.) I think the song is about a glamorous gal who gets people to do things for her, and isn’t the best connotation, but what I enjoy about it is the juxtaposition of some kind of “large” life combined with something decidedly mellow. I’m open to new name ideas.

But that is how my life goes. I have big ideas paired with an extremely low-key manner. I’m a mass of contradictions.

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